How can love be so unkind? Why cannot we choose the one to love? Why cannot we teach our hearts to beat for a person? Why does one hurt for you to become happy?
I have been in great dilemma whether to continue posting my love fairytales here in Blogger and in other social networking sites for the reason that it can be read by everybody. Everybody including those who care for you but unfortunately you cannot reciprocate the feelings.
I just realized how painful it is to know that someone you have cared for has a liking for another person. Yes, I have felt the same way before but it was not as deep as I think what she felt.
I received a text message from my classmate that she is happy for me but she is sad for our another classmate who has a deep feeling for me.
Then, I fathomed that for me not to hurt someone, I should end posting my love stories. Or should she for herself stop reading my posts.
God, this is really hard for me. I really want to share the bits and pieces of my life to everyone but the fear that I’ll be hurting someone is just big hurdle I need to jump through.
I guess if she’ll read this she will be hurt again. Now, another question pops out: should I post this?
Since you’re reading this, it means that I have decided to post it.
This will be my last post about love and the like…for now. I have decided to help her find her new inspiration. I guess that’s the right thing for me to do, isn’t it?
How can a brain as intelligent as mine be so puzzled with this? F*ck!
PS If you are reading this, I hope you understand that all I can offer is friendship. I cannot say to you personally because I’m a coward. I really value our friendship. Let’s be best of friends forever.